Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Today I woke up wiped out. I don't remember my dreams (which is odd for me). I had a hard time getting motivated to do anything, usually I get get through the morning dishes with out a second thought, and even tonight there are still half a sink full of dishes to get done. When I got ready for work today, I had to resign myself to the fact that I needed a little extra comfort today. I am not sick, that I know of anyway but tired and a bit run down. It was just one of those days that I wanted to curl up on the couch in my PJs with a big cup of tea and a good blanket and read, sleep, knit and snuggle with Llama for the whole day, but it is Tuesday and they won't pay me to do those things. So I settled with wearing one of Llama's sweatshirts and also added my grandmother's ring to my hand. Might sound silly but those two things made me feel better. I was able to get out the door with my tea (can't skip all the comforts!) I know there are many things, usually very individualized, that can comfort us. I just don't usually come across the need to have them physically close to me. Today was different. We had a busy, eventful weekend and I think it just wore me out a bit. It will all get back in sync and even this evening I am just taking it easy and not pushing things too hard. I am allowing myself to just rest. I have a knitting swap that I am researching patterns for, reading through some magazines and newspapers I have been meaning to get to and am starting to feel like myself again. I think there are days when I have to remember to give myself permission to take it easy and slow down. Definitely need to do that more often.